3.09.2008

When I Think About Angels...

"I think about youuuuu!" -Jamie O'Neal

:]

Sorry for the whole *poof* Lauren's gone thing. My laptop isn't cooperating. At all. In fact, I'm surprised it's stayed on long enough for me to get this far.

Ugh. It irritates the CRAP out of me.

In other news, Morgan & Daniel have been cancelled until Spring Break, because (we believe) Morgan was working today, so we couldn't pull off the mall thing.

Spring Break = THIS FRIDAYYYY!

I have rehersal for the Senior Directed Play tomorrow at six, so don't really expect to see me on for long (especially if the laptop is still trying to pull this crap). Anne Frank - Yayyy!

I got a new 2G Flash Drive. I'm so stupidly excited about it. I can't wait to load everything on it.

I'm working on Clara's next post, so bear with me! As kind of an 'I owe you one...' teaser, here's the first line:

The hospital room is silent for once today. It’s a morbid kind of silence, though; the kind that happens when something unexpected tosses your life over your head.


Make of it what you will; I dare you to be excited.

3.08.2008

What to Make of It.

Sooo... My parents are allowing Morgan and Daniel over tomorrow.

I just don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing.

...And if Morgan's going to actually be able to come.

Communication skills = FAIL.

3.07.2008

Dream-slash-not.

Okay.

So I had this dream.

My friend Danny is adorable. Like, no lie, every girl loves him in one way or the other. He's eighteen and like a big brother (literally - I've known him since I was eight), so we're really cool. We go to church together.

Anyway.

There's this guy named Matt Choloer (Probably not spelled right...) who's in Science Seminar with me. He's another ADORABLE guy who's getting ready to graduate. He was also, as I found out at lunch, a P2P student ambassador, so really, we're related... not.

OKAY.

So this dream I had took place in the ghetto. It was where I lived, and someone was driving me home. We were really scared, because people were firing bullets at us and other people and stuff, but eventually came up to a gas station/complex, where Danny lived.
So I'm there, thinking 'THANK GOD', and I go up to Danny's Room.

There's no one there.

My heart starts beating really fast and I run back to the gas station part, where his Mom is talking to the cashier/receptionist. I ask her what she's doing, because she never liked or talked to her son, and she glared at me and told me to mind my own business.

About this time, I get a really, really, really bad feeling.

I trip over something, and someone reaches out to help me up. When I look, it's Matt. "I'm Matthew Choloer" he says, all serious and regretful-looking. "Your friend, Danny, was in a car accident and suffered amnesia before dying."

I started bawling, and he was all awkwardly letting me cry on him.

And I woke up, crying.

It was so weird.

So now I'm anxious to see Danny on Sunday.

3.06.2008

THAT snuck up really quick.

SCRENZY STARTS APRIL FIRST.
BE THERE OR BE SCRIPTLESS.

I'm so excited!

I just can't believe they changed the months! I was shocked that it was in April instead of June, like usual.

In other news, Clara's decided to tell me EXACTLY what's happening, so I'm going to be a little crazy on her next post.

AAAND, also, at lunch today, Courtney, a senior, asked me if I was cast or crew in Megan Graumann's play. I told her cast, and she said, "Aaw. I wanted you to be in mine. Someone dropped out."

Oh, the love. The love, the love, the love.

AND I won an award at the fair. For what, they haven't told me. Excitement!

...But if it's the danged bird book, and I end up not going to state, I'm going to be hacked.

Because I didn't make it in powerpoint.

:)

3.05.2008

Remembering Anne.

Anne Frank, that is. I got a part in the senior play - well, one of the senior directed plays, called 'And Then They Came For Me: Remembering Anne Frank'.

I love it.

I play a big part, the part of Young Eva, who gets caught and placed in a concentration camp. I was the neighbor of Anne Frank.

It's very scaryish, though.

:)

I loved her house.

3.03.2008

"Crock a' Bull"

Girl, if I didn't love you, I'd say you were straight from this state, too.

:D I loved it SO much. There's no words.

So my dad walked in a minute ago, when I'm supposed to be working on SciSem stuff, and NOT on this, and I opened up a Word document.

"I think that in my project, you would have to be mentally retarded to not see that you’re aojalkdsjaokj laksjd laiujofewijdeowijdlkjasdlk al kdsjalks dal"

HECK YES.

ANYWAY, not a big post for tonight. I have to be up at school at six-thirty in the morning tomorrow (woohooo....) for the competition for SciSem. We're driving thirty minutes to Edmond to put on our party.

When I say party, I mean 'totally sophisticated form of heel torture.'

Anywho.

I LOVE YOU.

Yahdedahh.

So I'm laying in bed, thinking about tomorrow.

PLEASE REMIND ME NEVER TO DO THIS AGAIN.

I'm thinking about my schedule - about how I'm getting a grade tomorrow for memory, which I didn't get to memorize because, oh, yeah, my weekend was shot. AND, how I have to write four BORING reading responses before sixth hour.

And the homework I'll pick up for both Friday and Tuesday.

Praise the Lord, eh?

Anywho, Daniel and I were talking today, about how all of his ex-girlfriends were messed up in the head (literally speaking), and when we got to Kim, we couldn't think of one, so I suggested that men were DRAWN to her, and that was her 'deformity'.

Of course, my mouth also adds "And ALL of her ex-boyfriends and people she's turned down come running to me, like if they date me, she'll love them again. Losers."

...I have got to learn how to shut UP.

"LIKE WHO?!"

So I'm sitting there, trying to avoid the question, hacked at myself for bringing it up.

Daniel: "I know Charles asked you out after he broke up with Kim, and I know Morgan did..."

HOLD IT RIGHT THERE.

I never told Daniel about Morgan.

Meaning that not only has Morgan been telling Daniel about me, but Daniel's been quipping back with my lame excuses for not dating and, seeing as how he knew me when the Nick and Fabio/Chris situations happened, more than likely spilled.

WHY DID THEY HAVE TO BE FRIENDS?!

So now, I'm kind of stunned.
Because all this stuff's been coming from Daniel, about how he's still in love with Kim, and now that he's proved he's not making it up, I have to a) believe him about Morgan, which I was anyway, but this kind of put the nail in the coffin, and b) start paying more attention to what I'm saying to these people!

The Morgan/Lauren thing is OVER, though, so at the same time, I don't care.

Talk about confusing. :D

"I WILL SURVIVE! EYY EYY!"

3.02.2008

So you're back! From outer space!

dundedahdedoodoodoodood see that smile upon your face...

I really don't know all the lyrics.

But I'M BACK FROM A THREE DAY HIATUS.

It was boring. And busy. And completely mind boggling. I've never been this tireddd.

:)

MORE SOON!

2.26.2008

So Prettily is Really a Word...

Jacob Mann taught me this today. I was very disbelieving.

JEEZ. SECOND POST.
I think you all should just start checking behind the current 'most recent' post. There's always going to be more, or at least, usually.

My brain doesn't function normally, I don't think. It must be the insomnia.

So I started on my Male POV, and wanted to share my favorite line so far. Basically, if you've read this far, it's because of a single sentence. Be prepared to be awed (ha, ha).

Harper smiled serenely. “Anyway, I have the perfect plan. You all will be ninjas.”

Yeah.

That's right.

NINJAAAAH.

Suzie-Post



She's my lover.

Anyway, today was practically uneventful. I have no homework for the first time in ever (SHOCK!), but I DIDN'T GET TO TALK TO ANYONE because we went to Shawnee to see my Uncle Glenn and his daughter, our 'cousin', Karen. (She's not our age - she's actually older than my dad. Put 'great' in front of those titles, and you get how they're actually related.) It was way fun, and Karen has an IPhone (JEALOUS) that I got to mess around with.

I want one.

2.25.2008

Unoriginal Thought of the Year

It's eleven fifty p.m., and I'm sitting here thinking about ways to convert things on DVD to blogger format.

What if we messed around YouTube style, but on Blogger where we're a lot less public? We could have our own blogger/freewebs/whatever page for it.

Of course, this was Anna's idea from a LONG time ago, when we were still tykes and dealing through emails every other day, the size of seven-inch thick novels, so it's kind of been out there for a while.

I don't know. I'm randomly bubbling.

This is my third post after everyone's gone to sleep. See what happens?!

You know...

Now that I'm done freaking out over him, I feel really weird.

Like...free but all mixed up.

I mean, seriously. It's rejuvinating and hurtful all at once.

Which feels pretty darned funky.










*The one with the head and two little ears that does nothing... Click it. :D

My Homework: Fahrenheit 451 Narrative

“When you’re quite finished, you’re under arrest.”
The Captain spoke with a kind of amused and detached authority, as if he were only joking from one fireman to another, though my stomach knew that it wasn’t the case. Just the smoldering heap behind them, what used to be a house, proved it.
The man, called Montag if the crowd had heard right, stood there silently, helplessly, watching his life and books burn.
My heart went out to Montag; my last husband had been a librarian and reckless book-lover back in the days when it was still legal, and had ended up as a fiery bust of ashes into the midnight sky, God rest his soul. He’d burned with his beloved books, speaking Islamic faith passages about God as he did so. When I’d remarried, it was to a contractor who believed in the power of blueprints and computer screens instead of the printed word. I had always been indifferent to books, though silently opposed to those who wouldn’t leave those who still treasured them alone.
Three thirty in the morning, so it was, and yet, as tired as I felt, I knew that there was a remaining sleepless night ahead of me.
The rest of the crowd slowly fell away behind me as the house smoked, but I felt compelled to stay; I was there for the whole thing.
“Was it my wife that turned in the alarm?” Montag asked after several uneven tries. For such a strong man, he seemed so weak and torn, though for good reason.
The Captain nodded, and proceeded to talk about the foolishness of both Montag and the books, and how the world was just fine without them. More than once the Captain insulted Montag, though he just took the blows without so much as flinching.
Montag tilted his head, almost imperceptibly, and just as quickly as it happened, Montag was reeling backward from the force of a punch straight from the Captain.
I felt my eyes widen in shock. Now here was a twist to the everyday tale of the house-burning, book-owning scenario that I’d not only seen many times, but had lived through.
Quickly, before Montag could recover, he reached out, picking up something that, from my yard, was practically invisible.
The Captain said something roughly, tucking the small object into a pocket.
“No!” The disgraced fireman cried out.
I watched, breathless, as the Captain’s eyes flickered to the flame thrower, caused by a trigger movement on Montag’s part that I had missed.
Seconds ticked by unnervingly before anyone did anything, the air thick with tension and the smell of burning wood. When they did, it was a relaxed smirk from the Captain.
“Well, that’s one way to get an audience. Hold a gun on a man and force him to listen to your speech.” The Captain rambled on, my eyes burning from the effort it was taking not to blink, in fear that something else might happen. “Go ahead now, you second-hand litterateur, pull the trigger.” The Captain stepped forward arrogantly.
My heart rate accelerated.
“We never burned right…” Montag said, almost wistful.
The Captain, confident – too confident, in my opinion – smiled wickedly. “Hand it over, Guy.”
Before I could truly process what was happening, a ball of fire lashed out at the Captain, along with a loud shriek as he was consumed by the starving mass of flame. He crumpled to the ground, the odor of burning flesh tingeing the air.
Bile rose in my throat, but I could not look away as Guy Montag, believer in the truth of books, knocked the two other firemen unconscious.
For a moment, as I clutched my hand over my mouth, all seemed silent.
Montag turned in time to hear the bounding leaps, the almost-growl of the Mechanical Hound; the same one that the oldest captain, before the one killed that night, had brought with him to fetch my husband.
I prayed that it couldn’t sense fear.
It was almost graceful, that bulk of machinery, and I had to turn away as it leaped at Montag, one of the people it was meant to obey; to listen to.
I heard a slam, as if it had tackled Montag to the ground, and then another, and after a loud shout, a series of several more loud ones, and then the smell of a clean kind of fire, almost metallic.
My brain played with the sounds, forming them into different outcomes, and scaring me enough that even if what had happened was horrible, it couldn’t be any worse than my own imagination.
I turned around.
Guy lay on the ground, by the tree in what had once been his yard. He looked dazed and stunned, like he wasn’t exactly sure of what had just happened, though whenever he adjusted his leg, he winced.
Maybe the animal had gotten him, then.
Yet when I looked closer, I could see the charred remains of its spidery legs and mechanical entrails scattered across the yard.
Montag attempted to stand, but failed. “Come on!” he shouted. “Come on, you, you can’t stay here!”
His second try worked better, though the pain obvious in both his vehement curses and crippled actions proved that it was not easy for him.
People began to come out again, and I hoped I didn’t look too obviously consumed with his challenge. They shouted at him, tried to get his attention, but he just kept moving, cursing, and stumbling, before long disappearing completely into the darkness of the morning.

Suffocation.

But really, it's not that bad.
[& scratch the rule in last post for today.]

So I was thinking, on the bus, and it dawned on me that I'm just being used. Again.

Jessica, who had no prior knowledge about what Daniel's been saying about Morgan loving Kim still, said that this girl from Westmoore who's friends with Morgan thought she was Kim about two weeks ago, and came up to her and said "Morgan heard that you and your boyfriend broke up and he's going to ask you out!" before she found out that she wasn't talking to Kim.

& I was like, Oh.

Hm.

And then I got to thinking about it on the bus.
And it occurred to me that everytime a guy is interested in me, it's for jealousy purposes.
And that this time, I was kind of convinced that he wasn't.
And he was.
And now I have to get over it.

Those awkward hugs and silences are making a lot more sense.

But no worries.

I've gotten over boys before, for the same reason.
Except... This one might take a little longer, because he's the first one I thought wasn't lying.

Ugh, it makes me sick.

2.24.2008

I Don't Speak French

Girls Aloud or something.

Whatever.

Anyways, I'm in a blah mood. I've firmly decided against doing that freaking retarded detention, by the way, and also am on a 'not-discussing-Morgan-on-the-blog-like-an-obsessive-fangirl' diet until at least March.

AT LEAST.

kthankyou.

New 'The Batterys Down' video on the first, also, so go check it out.

AND PRAY FOR ME.
I PRESENT MY POWERPOINT TOMORROW.

2.23.2008

My House

Okay. Break it down.

*starts rapping*

So over at mah house dere were dese...

*stops.*

Forget it.

----

OKAY.

*TO* break it down, everyone showed up, PLUS one extra that Morgan happened to bring along, who's name escapes me, which made it kind of awkward (but whatever) and left around four. Daniel stayed until nine, ate dinner, and left, and Caleb left at four thirty for work.

It was okay.

And yet again, it's been established that I suck tremendously at Guitar Hero.

But I got to see Morgan!!
(AndCalebandDaniel)

UNDEPRESSED!

SCREW BRONSON.
I'm having a good moment. Like, uber good.

In order:
  • I went to see The Mystery of Edwin Drood. It was awesome. Amanda was brilliant.
  • Daniel called, we confirmed, and he told me he & Caleb were showing up tomorrow at two.
  • He was like "I'll call Caleb, you call Morgan" and I was like... "...Mm. Okaay."
  • So I called Morgan RIGHT THEN. I have guts, kthanks.
  • Officially, he's wearing his tight rocker jeans tomorrow. He *made* me pick them out...?
  • EVERYONE IS COMING AND I'M HYPER AND I'M SO EXCITED.

I've missed those losers. :D

2.22.2008

I Hate You: A Letter To A Teacher

Apparently, I'm the worst student ever, and you know what? I don't care anymore! I'm so tired of trying to impress you, and having you shove complete GARBAGE under my face and harass me about it.

I hate you.

I will be proud to tell you that I got a perfect score on my Writing EOIs. You will be the first to give me the lowest mark in the class. I will be happy to make up work. You're making me redo work I've already done. I WILL be the first to tell you that I don't like involving home-life with school-life. You're going to make that all change.

I hate you.

Look, okay? I'm not going to do the punishment you gave me. I will make up the ONE worksheet I owe, but nothing more. It's your fault, it's my time, and you know what, I'm going to stop wasting it on you. You're worthless, as both a teacher and a person.

I hate you.

I am so sick of your snide comments about what I'm eating, about my drama roles, and about my habits - but mostly, I'm so sick of the way that I try to do something right, and you sit there and ignore it, bringing up something that I supposedly didn't do right without giving me a clue as to what it is.

I hate you.

You heard the stutter when I talked; you heard the nervous laugh. You knew I was trying not to cry - I saw it in your eyes! Yet again, you sat there and criticized me. Is that what you're paid for?! To put kids down and make sure they won't achieve!?

I hope you enjoy my disjointed words, my wandering mind, and my horrid diction. Who gave you the power to grade my thoughts?

I can't tell you how much I hate you.

Because obviously, according to you, I cannot write.

2.21.2008

Back on the High front...

Here's some pics of Stephenie with the cast, and some Twilight ga-ga mothers with the others.

RP looks high again.
But that's okay.

So everyone's signed off, and I forgot to tell you! I'm going to be in a skit in March for the school Shakespeare thing, something the Seniors get to do (but our class has a skit in for some reason). It's a Parody called 'Much Ado High School'-

...Wait.

I talked about this already.

Crap.

I'm too lazy to delete that though, so you're just going to have to ride the brain fart with me, here.

Anyway.

Wow. How lame. That's really all I had in mind to say.

ENJOY THE PICTURES, I guess.

...

And pray that I get to spend time with my favorite three guys on the face of the Earth. :)

2.20.2008

"I Gave Up Religion for Lent"

-Jonas Hart (Soon-to-be failure of SciSem, but really, aren't we all?)

And, just for good measure, this is Jonas:


That boy is funnayyy. (The quote is from, like, a week after I met him.)

Anywho, I'm down to four more slides before I can officially rejoice and sleep for three days (not literally, unfortunately, but the point still stands). I'm not taking this stupid class next year - It's just kind of dumb that I'm putting all this crap into it, and yet:
a) I'm failing.
b) My project blows.
c) Everyone hates this class.
-Resulting in all of us scheming on how we're going to BS more of our project and how to get away with it. Lovely.

I also have ANOTHER paper to write for English and a sonnet to memorize before Friday, along with another script, which I love.

It's called 'Much Ado High School' - a modern parody of Shakespeare's 'Much Ado About Nothing'. I'm the villian, Don John (who IS a girl, okay, and prefers to go by DJ), Don Pedro's obsessively evil and conceited step-sister.

It's awesome. I'm hilarious and sinister and give a lunch lady pink eye as part of a smear campaign on my brother because I hate him.

Thank the Lord. I thought my part would suck.

So it's getting icy outside (supposedly), and it's looking like I won't get to spend the night doing make-up work with Kyleigh (Oh, drat!) OR get to hang out with Daniel and Morgan (CRAAAPP), but I will be able to go to WHHS production of 'The Mystery of Edwin Drood', if I got the name right.

She said I had to, because she came to see the Pajama Game. Pssh.



...

(Random pic of Lauren in a My Little Pony Crown.)