1.30.2008

Another Day.

So today sucked.

BAD.

And I may fail classes.

And it's a bad time of the month for this to be happening.

Get the drift?

:(

Ineedmesomemorgan.

Sigh.

Anyways, here's some wicked icons. I have more, but most of them are either really dark or lovey-dovey, and since Val-Day is coming up, I figured I'd save those for then.

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

1.28.2008

Engliosomic.

Man, I totally wish that was a word. It's dictionary definition would look something like:

Engliosomic: adj. (EN-glee-oh-SOM-ik): Posessing the look of dreary and terrifying; a foreboding quality. "The coming week looks engliosomic in view."

See?! I could literally write my own non-English-rule-following dictionary!

Anywho, my week looks pretty engliosomic.

I'm supposed to be writing a paper about politics... But I can't seem to get started! I hate this crap Mrs. Bronson's throwing at us - WHO CARES ABOUT THE SOURCES?! JUST GET THE PAPER WRITTEN, LADY!

Ahem. To clarify - She GAVE us six sources to use to defend our views. They all blow.

And then, of course, this is the last week of rehersals! We PREFORM next week, and we don't even have blocking for Act II yet!

You can imagine the fun.

Anywho, I won't be home until nine most days this coming week, so just drop me an email or comment or something, and I'll respond at an unseemly hour in the night.

Ttylwic.
(ttylwhenican.)

1.24.2008

Long Day.

"The night was cold and gray, promising snow for the next morning. Stars were bundled in the haze, the fog not yet freezing, creeping into the lungs of whoever would open their mouth, silently moving around the three figures as the wind blew in gentle disturbances."

Soooo... I watched THE LAST two episodes of Chuck until the Writer's Strike is over. How sad is THAT?

Not to mention Daniel called, and we were talking about how the friends at the different schools were doing, and something came up to where we were talking about Morgan. FYI, Daniel DOES NOT know about this whole Lauren-obsesses-over-Morgan thing, so we were just kind of casually touching some random subject about how short the list was of his ex-girlfriends (sarcastically, I might add), and he happened to pop off about Morgan with: "PLEASE! Morgan's got TONS of girls in love with him."

I think that was the part that made me a teeny bit sick.

I miss him a lot.
I think that he needs to call me. Or ya know, just IM. Whatever.
:(

Anyways, Amanda called and we had an hour discussion on her boyfriend, a guy named Erick, and why her boyfriend had better not break up with her (it sounds more 'intimate' than it was, but it's too freaking long to go into details) between her crying, and then I finally got her settled, telling her that nothing was her fault in this (it wasn't).

SIGH.

I have rehersal until seven tomorrow.
& Alan and Molly are coming over.
& Westboro Baptist is still hacking me off.

:/

1.23.2008

“We need number 8283.”

That's the first line of my challenge attempt, I'm going to go ahead and say. It's kind of a 'prologue' thing, but the 2k will also involve [part of] the story, I promise.

It's about a girl named Bel (Abeline - I really think that's one of my favorite names ever) who, at eight, is taken in from an orphanage in which she never belonged (not like 'didn't fit in' - like 'family didn't care') who is carted off to live out her life as the successor to a very rich, very powerful old woman named Madame Sadine, who picked a random orphan number (they go by numbers, not names at an orphanage) to take her place in the Royal Court of the Federated States of Genalya when she's eighteen.

The whole thing revolves around the future, in her life when a war hits their land and the controversial issue of not having a blood-relation to the predecessor of the seat.

...But there's love. And there's adventure.

And tons of rule-breaking.

1.22.2008

Son of a...

I'm going to assassinate these people:

www.godhatesfags.com

-for-

THIS.

(If you can find a way to contact them, please let me know. I have so much to say.)

If you a***oles can't tell movies from real life, a place of mourning from a good place to protest, and a character from a real person, you're delusional. I hope that if you ever have a child, mother, father, or spouse die, someone's there to picket the hell out of that funeral.

I wish Heath Ledger's daughter great comfort.

You accuse people of thinking they are God, when there you are, "enforcing" God's rules - Something that he has given us free will of which to obey or not, with the consequences clearly spelled out.

NEVER say that someone is going to Hell. NEVER.

Those 'fiery pits' aren't just calling those people's names that YOU choose to damn. It's in the hands of GOD.

And you, Shirley L Phelps-Roper? You're one of the many who are judging people for their scriptural beliefs. You're calling a WHOLE group of marines FAGS.

You demote people for being immature, but you're the one using that improper word.

...Because I, for one, believe that our Marines are NOT cigarettes, along with the fact that they're not "getting their asses whipped by God".

Go to Iraq before you open your freaking mouth.

"We’ve told you for years to stop making proud sin your policy. You don’t listen. Now you have vicious monsters for soldiers, and they’re getting their asses whipped by God!"

AND, when a group of Vet Bikers offered a marching area of peace...

"Clearly you vets have a heavy hand in the wrath of God pouring out upon this nation and you are responsible for the dead soldiers..."

Like hell, lady.
Because you would totally know that the vets were NOT forced in by a draft, were NOT forced into the service by family, and had ANY control over the killing.

"May the LORD judge between you and me. And may the LORD avenge the wrongs you have done to me, but my hand will not touch you."
-1 Samuel 24:12

That's right.

I read the bible - Not only "crack it open" like you encourage people to do.

(also check out Matt. 7:1 --- Oh, but you've probably already 'read' that one, right?)

As for the 'God hates this' and 'God hates that', WHAT?! God LOVES (HATRED is not an emotion our God has ever and will ever 'feel' towards us! He MOURNS at our downfalls! He is displeased, and sure, has wrath and fury, but he NEVER hates us as a whole. He hates what some do, but why is America to be hated, save you all?!

"...so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."
-Ephesians 3:17-19

As for your introduction, about how America 'bombed' you all so now God hates America and will make us lose the war, WHERE DO YOU GET THIS?! You criticize the Catholics for listening to a Pope, but at least they have something of a sensible nature TO listen to!

Follow the bible, and not your head. God will NEVER induce his wrath (ex: the FLOOD) on us again to destroy us. If we destroy ourselves, that's our problem - GOD WILL NOT INTERFERE - AS PROMISED.

-----

Sorry, guys. I'm pissed and very rant-filled. I can't stand to see things like this happening, even though I don't support homosexuality.

Ridiculous.

1.21.2008

Well We Got No Choice, All the Girls and Boys...

School tomorrow.

Whee-hee.

I have so much crap due that it's almost not funny.

Actually, it isn't, and now I'm slightly stressing.

WONDERFUL.

:/

Happy MLK Day!

You know, when I was younger, I used to think that today had something to do with milk - that white substance that I hate to drink unless it's after a large slice of chocolate anything or a PB&J sandwich.

RF, I guess. :)

Anywho, it's almost two.

But I don't have school tomorrow, and the only things I'm doing is house-looking for Casey and Mrs. L and then skating for six hours (at the amazing cost of three bucks) at Moore Skate.

Morgan's scaring me.

Aaaah... Hmm...

Oh! I got another letter from People to People, and they want me for an all-alumni trip to either (and I quote): "Leadership Summit - Several Major Universities - $2,195," "Beyond Walls: Berlin to Warsaw - (No really, guess where?) - $4,499," "Into the Tropics: Galapagos and Beyond (getting the feeling they like the word 'beyond'?) - The Galapagos Islands - $6,399," and "Cultures of Southeast Asia - Mostly Malaysia - $6,399."

:O

EXPENSIVE.

But okay, the Galapagos Island trip would be amazing --- Only people given governmental permission are allowed to go there, as there are no tourists permitted, and only Scientific Researchers. Every island has a different climate with different animals and plant life, though they're not very far away from each other.

And I mean really, I'd rather put the 3k it costs to go to a 'Leadership Summit' into a trip across my usual boundries, ya know? :)

I want to go.
SO BAD.

...(and if not to the GIs, then to Berlin/Warsaw --- My WWII love is making me ache since the brochure says something about speaking to a survivor AND getting to go to Auschwitz)...

But not this year --- It's already been said. I went to Europe last year (WHICH I MISS AND TALK ABOUT ALL THE FREAKING TIME), leaving us broke.

Maybe for a senior trip. :D

In other news, Clara's Blog is updated, and she's, as usual, under very dramatic circumstances. Go see (link on WR homepage - I'm lazy).

1.20.2008

Man, I feel...

Like a woman.

DUNDUN, NANANA, DUN DUN.

[/shania]

:)

Still no Morgan.
But I just wanted to write.
I'm in a mood for a love story.
(Aka, get ready for my 2k challenge to be sap-worthy.)

Aah, so officially, I'm going to kidnap Anna.

The Santa thing, the BARBIE thing... How are you ALIVE?!

Please, please, please tell me you watched some kind of embarassing kids show when you were younger! (Examples include, but are not limited to, Barney, Sesame Street, Puzzle Place, Bananas in Pajamas, Teletubbies (eeh)...)

(...If you didn't catch it, I watched all of those. Except Teletubbies. Thank GOD.)

Laaaahhhdeedaaah.

I had a disturbing dream the other night about Morgan, but I wrote it in Clara/Zacch view. Mentally disturbed? I think so. :)

New post to come soon on the C/Z thing, btw. It's been tooooo long.

1.19.2008

Haha!

You guys make me laugh. :)

And I know, I know. I have yet to add Keila's address (Yipes!), so I'm actually doing that... NOW.

Yeahyeah, so I'm going on to Regionals, which is kind of a given since every HSer is, but hey. I'm excited. No more all night crap until March. :)

Still no Morgan.

The boy is driving me bonkers.

And what's worrying is that last time he wasn't talking to me was the last time he dated.

GET A GRIP, LAUREN.

Anywhommm, I'm in the middle of watching the Bring It On 'series'. I love mah Hayden.

I slept until one this afternoon. I'm very impressed and high on myself.

I lost my cellphone. I think it's in Courtney's car. (hope...)

Officially, I think Hot Rod is the best movie on the face of the planet next to Natalie Portman's works. I've discovered that she's my favorite actress, and has even done an Oklahoma film, "Where the Heart is," that I almost can't help but absolutely adore.

I hate judges. They make me gooble when I talk.

I didn't go to school today. I was too impossibly tired after getting three hours of sleep in two days.

I'm the official baby of the SciSem team, making me the insta-Mascot. It's kind of cool though... Except when Jonas tells us bad stories about getting kicked out of church for fornication at Golden Corral at lunch with twenty kids at a table.

I *just* realized I was supposed to be doing a skit today with Sam. $*#&.

I'm so screwed on Tuesday because of fact stated above.

...

And that's about it, I think. My life --> random blurb post.

1.14.2008

Scrap Eet.

The blonde swung around the support beam, far too glamorous for the garage she was in.
“You could take me, you know. It wouldn’t be suggesting anything… Unless you wanted it to, I mean. Because I do.”
Jake rolled out from under the car, everything about him contrasting against his guest, and frowned up at the girl. “You’ve been prattling about something for twenty minutes straight and I still can’t figure it out, Ella.”
She blew off the remark, her hair bouncing in luxurious curls beside her in excitement. “Jer-bear kind of mentioned something about you wanting to take me to the Snowball next Saturday, and I have to say, I’m all for it. I’m not going to lead you or hold you up just because I want you to beg, though it may not be a bad idea idea for you to try and manage it…”
“No.”
“Great, so can…” She faded off, her forehead scrunching up in confusion. “But… Why not?”
Jake sat up and rubbed off the oil on his hands. “Plainly, I just really don’t like you.”
“But you have to go anyway,” the model-esque girl argued, unhearing. “Who are you going to take if not me?”
“Oh, I don’t know, probably my girlfriend.”
EllaMarie’s look of puzzlement vanished, leaving in its place a look of obvious disgruntlement. “She’s a skank.”
“My girlfriend,” he repeated. “The best person for anything in this god-forsaken job.”
She shrugged indifferently. “Either way, she’s still a skank.”
Jake sighed, wiping the grease off of his hands. “Do you really need something, Ella, or are you here to humor your brother by irritating me?”
“Jesus, Jake, how many times do I have to repeat myself? Will. You. Take. Me. To. The. Banquet?”

1.13.2008

PRIVATED.

Because search engines get people into trouble. And since no one at school even knows I *have* one of these, it's for the best. No need for them to read my secrets online, kthx.

Anywho.

It's been a long week, with all this SciSem stuff happening and rehersals literally eating my brain, so I haven't totally gotten to talk to you guys a lot. Sorry. (And no "NO! IT'S OKAY! WE LOVE YOU!" things. GIVE ME HELL, dangit!) This next week's going to be worse, but if anything, I will talk to you on Saturday.

Yeah... We compete this week.

OH, I WANT TO BE HOMESCHOOLED!

No Morgan. Still.

It makes me sad.

Maybe he'll wait until next year... Ha, ha.

By the way, Anna and Katie, I need the other's emails so I can add them on here, too. I didn't have them. D:

1.10.2008

A Suplet?

I don't know what you'd call a skit with six people, so that's what it's officially known as on Lauren's Blog.

:)

My monologue part (since we all had to pick one we liked of our Suplet, called 'Quilters' - of which we're only doing a timy excerpt of - about women who are on the trail, talking about their experiences and past, and wouldn't you believe it, the fact that everyone's either related to or in love with Jamie. We're pioneers, enduring death, harsh winters, and leaving the ones we love behind, and (it's very symbolistic), this is what our "quilt blocks" are "saying". The lesson we're learning from this? Acting with passion. See how:

Elly: "Remember this calico print? You should. You had a hard time keepin' your hands off it. I wore it the time you called on me promisin' to marry and be true. Well we sealed that promise, James Earl Prentiss, and whatever you think, I done what I done all for the love of you. And now I'm practically gone crazy with the shame of it, and waiting for you to come round. What's keeping you from me, Jamie? I thought we really had something special. Well, I'm not gonna beg you. I still have my pride... but I'm here. And I'm sewing the Wild Goose Chase pattern into my block because sometimes that's what lovin' you feels like. And I'll tell you somethin' else. If I get near that simp I hear you're fiddlin' with, I'm gonna tear her hair out. You'll always belong to me, Jamie, no matter how free you think you are."

I really, really, really like it.

---

In other news, here's my stalkerish update of the moment.


Is it bad of me to be sitting here, worried that he tried to jump off of a mailbox again and broke his legs?

I know. It's not.

But I haven't talked to him since last Sunday, so it's not like I'd know or anything.

Love makes me feel like a creep, ya know it?

1.07.2008

Carole Says...

That this blog is getting lame.

SO STEP UP, LAUREN.

Jeez.

I'm so tired, guys. Sorry that I haven't updated too much lately. These flies are making me wake up at three in the morning, which I can honestly say, is not fun. At all.

I'm trying to get it fixed, though.

Speaking of, new music thing to come soon. Completely revamped, with maybe one or two of the old songs and a whole lot of my newly descovered bands or old faves.

Either way, it shall rock.

Drama rehersal tomorrow, too.

...blaskdjalkdsja.

1.04.2008

GUESS WHO?!





Take a guess who they are.
Not the actors, mind you. The characters.

:D
I FOUND THEM.

Just a Day, Just an Ordinary Day...

Tempting, hm?

1.02.2008

Talon Post (But Without Talon)

So I started working on the beginning of everything in the story with Talon and Ana (who's name I'm still not sure about sticking with) yesterday night, and as it turns out, she has a pretty dark story in store, for why all this happens in the first place. This is the lead-up to it all, so pretty soon you'll probably find out. :)

Mrs. Lariat, the old and somewhat disabled homeroom teacher eyed me with contempt, her wiry gray hair sticking to her forehead in the humid air of the English building, her eyes livid, framed accordingly by overly-red plastic frames, as I tried to hide behind nothing, afraid that she would actually want something from me.
Something about this place, possibly the close resemblance to hell (if not the fact that the air conditioning had apparently been broken all year) had left it the one place that even the people restricted to their classrooms tried to escape.
“You came in late, didn’t you?”
I looked up at her in disbelief. “Are you serious?”
She frowned at me, the lines on her face growing more and more pronounced and gathering in pools beside her lips. “Do I look like I’m kidding?”
“I was here ten minutes before class! You saw me!”
She leaned down to my desk, her breath smelling like death. I should’ve taken it as some kind of freakish omen. “Go to the office before I report you for not getting some kind of slip.”
Emily ‘the Witch’ Sidson laughed from behind me, making some snide remark about the way even a bat as blind as Lariat could tell when someone was worthless quietly enough for my oppressing authority figure not to hear.
“Look, Mrs. Lariat, you’ve sent me to the office for the last three days.” I pleaded on my behalf, trying to use logic to prove my innocence. “Don’t you think I would’ve learned by now and that I’m telling the truth? Mistakes are easy to make, believe me, and no one would blame you if...”
“NOW.” She demanded hotly.
I heaved my bag back onto my shoulder, sighing. I was sure Mr. Truman would be all too happy to disclose this information to my dad; probably just as happy as Jay, the over-sensitive office aide with an over-obsession for telling stories, would be to get another listener.
“Smooth move, laxative,” Jana, Emily’s best friend, commented across the room as I headed for the door. Her whole group of posse-loving, Emily-worshipping friends, and all of those in the class who had some kind of desire to be any kind of popular, chuckled quietly, leering at me from across the room.
I held my tongue. There would be time for verbally tearing her apart later, and she was giving me some really great material.
I pulled open the heavy metal door, slinging my bag halfway on my back. A couple more crude whispers followed me out the door, more than likely followed by a number of equally crude gestures.
Pulling another door open, leading outside, I headed across the sidewalk to the building straight across from the English building.
If the Main Office had been anywhere else, I might have reconsidered going to the office; I may have just gone home and forgotten about the whole situation. Of course, Dad would be upset and throw things around for a while, but this would be my second absence in four days, since the school system had decided that two tardies was somehow equal to an absence in that class.
Obviously, they didn’t have any kind of math teacher’s input on that whole issue, because as far as I remembered, two ten minute periods of lateness don’t exactly equal fifty-five minutes of class time.
As I reached for the door to the office, it swung open of its own accord.
After a moment of shock, I saw the pasty hand that had actually done it.
“Hi, Jay.” I said dryly. Most people would've gotten the hint.
“Hey, Anna!”
I grimaced, walking down the tiled hallway with him behind me like some kind of sidekick. “It’s not pronounced ‘Aah-na,’” I corrected tightly. “It’s ‘Auh-nuh’. A-N-A, not A-N-N-A.”
“Uh-huh. That’s what I said.” He chirped merrily, not at all disturbed by the fact that I was speeding up, trying to get away, as if it were possible. “Anyways, why are you in here? Did you bring an attendance sheet? I thought that Mrs. Lariat was here today…”
“I was tardy, Jay. Again.”
There was a moment of silence from Jay. That was one of the more serious offenses he had lectured me on yesterday morning when I’d been in the office for the very same thing.
Of course, though, the silence ended too soon.
“Well… I guess everyone messes up at some point in their lives, though I wouldn’t let myself run into that situation again. I know you probably will find this kind of hard to believe, but, well, I was tardy once. It was back in third grade and I had a doctor’s appointment that ran a little bit over schedule. I was panicking, but you’ll never believe this, you’re excused if you can prove you were at the doctor! Anyways, it didn’t take too long to get that cleared up with Mrs. Heeder, the attendance secretary at the time. I think Wanda’s pretty good at her job here, though – that’s Mrs. Qwan to you, Anna – even if she has been here for only a couple of months. You know, it’s kind of funny, but it seems that most third-graders-”
I slammed the Principal’s office door in his face, relieved to have a reason to do so, and turned to face Mrs. Turner, Mr. Truman’s older, yet much younger-acting, secretary, who was looking at me both surprised and amused.
“He’s extremely annoying, isn’t he?” she remarked as the first period bell rang.
“That doesn’t even begin to cut it.” I said grimly, sinking into a chair. “Hey, Mrs. T., is everything always this screwy around here?”
She turned back to her computer, chuckling. “Honey, it’s your fourth day of school. Lighten up and look at whatever bright side you can find. If things suck for you now, just know they’re not going to exactly get better quickly.”
I groaned. “Does Truman know I’m in here yet?”
Without taking her eyes off of the screen, she picked up a pink slip of paper that she’d printed off and waved it in the air. “And it’s Mr. Truman, Ana.”
“Crap.” I remarked.
“Tardiness travels faster than gossip around here.” She said, shrugging.
I snorted. “She said she wasn’t going to report me as long as I came in here and got a slip.”
Mrs. T. laughed. “I thought by now you would’ve learned that Mrs. Lariat isn’t exactly of the bigger brained humans in this world. She probably doesn’t even remember your name.”
What’s really sad is that what she’d said was true. “She called me Tiffani Lese yesterday.” I agreed.
“Exactly. So see?”
I sighed and put my head against the wall, shutting my eyes.
Last week, things had been so much better.
Before I had time to at least relax in my too-cold, too-plastic, recycled seventies waiting room chair, Truman’s door opened and a pale-faced kid who looked like he’d been beaten up pretty badly walked out in a daze.
“We have a contract to discuss, Mrs. Simon.” Truman announced through his office and out the door. He knew I could hear him.
I heaved a sigh and got up, lugging my bag with me. It was still loaded with school supplies I’d had to get out of my old locker.
“Hey, Mr. Truman.” I said, walking into the freezing office. All of the sudden, the hellish English building didn’t seem too incredibly bad.
“Ana Simon. Well, well, well, another tardy for the books already.”
He didn’t even look at me; he was turned away from both his desk and I, pouring him another cup of coffee.
I slid into one of his more cushioned chairs. “If that’s what you want to call it. I swear, I’d been there since before the bell rang. I even asked her a question to make sure she’d remember me… Ah, Mr. Truman, don’t you think that’s a little selfish?”
His thin figure turned to me, an inquisitive look on his face. Dressed in tan slacks and a light blue collared shirt with the sleeves rolled up, it seemed so strange that he was a principal in a high school; he looked like he’d barely gotten out of high school himself, let alone college, though I knew full and well that the picture of the three kids and woman on his desk happened to be a part of his married life – his after college married life, as he told kids who were having other-half issues.
“Excuse me?”
“The coffee maker.” I pointed out. “For the last three days, I’ve noticed that everyone else has to go to the break room for coffee, which makes them even more irritable before their daily cup…”
“Not everyone here drinks coffee in the first place. They’re naturally moody.” He said, half-smiling.
“But even so, those who do don’t have their own, while you get to sit in your comfortable office with air conditioning at your disposal and all the coffee you can possibly brew.”
Truman chuckled, shaking his head and seating himself in the chair behind his monstrosity of a wooden desk. “We’re not here for my coffee habits, Ana, though I can see why you may want to avoid the issue of your tardies.” He pulled at some papers on the desk, taking a sip of coffee. “This happens to be your fourth tardy in your first four days at this school.”
“It’s not my fault. I told you this the last three times.”
“Right,” he agreed, “But I don’t know that you’re to be completely believed.”
I raised an eyebrow. “Sorry, what?”
He kept looking at several papers. “According to your old transcript, you were only tardy once this year over at our sister school, so I’m kind of curious as to why.”
I looked at him skeptically. “You really think someone would try to get something from being tardy?”
“Attention, possibly. A reputation, yes…”
My mouth fell, and I shook my head furiously. “You know that’s not true. You really think I want to be known the same way I was back then? That was horrible.”