8.31.2007

It WAS a good game...

But no, we didn't win. 20-22.

I'm. completely. depressed.
and here's the catch - I SHOULDN'T be. I got to see Morgan and Daniel, Kyleigh's back in Moore, and I talked to Morgan more on a cellphone today than ever.

I want to cry so incredibly bad.

When Morgan first got there, I was so excited. Like, I jumped over the rail to see him and hug him. But for some stupid reason, it was... awkward.
Then we go to the Westmoore side, since Casey's going to be preforming that way, and he introduces me to these really fun, bright, and happy WM girls that are his friends.
I hate them. Oh, they have no clue.
They pop off, saying something about how this girl, 'Jolee' is in love. And they want to know if he likes her.

And, christ, he doesn't say anything, and I have to act like I'm looking for Casey. Which I wasn't - I was trying to not listen.

I really, really, really thought that he knew, ya know?


...
Anyways, I didn't tell him that I could date now.
I think, after that, I just kind of blah-ed out.
He went and sat with his sister and just told me to call him or whatever.
I called him twice.
He was with his friends. The ones I met.

I'm hopeless, here, and it's killing me.
I shouldn't have to scream to get someone to hear me.

...Right?

8.30.2007

...

the
MOORE LIONS
are going to win this year.

GO HOME, WESTMOORE JAGFAGS.

8.28.2007

Theories? Science? JESUS SAVES!

So on the bus today, I had a slight run-in with an old classmate whom I've known since kindergarten.

She was telling Shawn and I about Brittany and Andrew (Andrew's one of my BFFL. He's amazing. Like, he even took me to eighth grade formal. Brit, I don't care for. Anime freak that she is, we have NOTHING in common and she's just stranger than anything. Ever. But I'm okay with her. Since, you know, Andrew's DATING her and has been since Feb.). They've obvioulsy hit some kind of rough patch, and when I asked why, here's the Whitni-fied explanation:

"Well, okay, so Brittany doesn't like to be kissed or anything, but she deals with a kiss on the cheek for Andrew. Anyways, the other day when she was leaving Andrew's house..." (she scoots toward the end of the seat, and I'm thinking OHMYGOSH, WHAT ALREADY?!) "...he tried to kiss her on the lips."

My thoughts: So. Flipping. WHAT.

BUT. Then she CONTINUED:
"He kind of pulled her towards him, and she pulled away, but he like, grabbed her wrist like this..." (She demonstrates on poor ol' Shawn, who I have as a friend as well, by wrapping her hand in a tight grip around his wrist, who grimaces. I'm sorry Shawn. I wouldn't want her AIDS infected hand on me, either. Long story.) "and MADE her kiss him!"

I gaped. I gawked. I cried "TELL ME IT ISN'T SO!" inwardly. But... Andrew? Abusive?


Me: "...Andrew didn't try anything, right?"
Whitney: "HE KISSED HER."
Me: "Oh, really? I COULDN'T TELL."
Shawn: "No, I don't think he 'tounged' or whatever you call it, Lauren."
Me: "....Well... Then I can see where the frustration at not getting to kiss your own girlfriend would come about. And if he feels guilty, like you said he did, I don't think you should even be disclosing this to us."
Whitney: "But Brittany's the VICTIM."
Me: "BUT ANDREW IS NOT A MONSTER. STHU."

Whit & Shawn babbled on about something for a while, and then...

Whitney: "Yeah, so Andrew pulled a major Michael."
(Michael = Her ex, who broke up with her to be friends. She says they never got intimate, but I can affirm that they were nasty down by the creek. Her mouth... UGH.)
Me: "...Sorry, but can I theorize on something without you guys getting offended?"
Whitney: (shrugs) "Whatever. I don't really get mad."
Me: "Well, okay, why did you and Michael break up?"

She proceeds to tell me that they broke up because he was in "LOVE" (I don't believe her, here...) with another girl, and she was hormonal one day and went off on him completely.

Me: (bluntly) "So... it's your fault."
Whitney: "HE. WAS. IN. LOVE. WITH. SOMEONE. ELSE."
Me: "BUT HE WANTED TO BE FRIENDS, AND NOW YOU HATE HIM."
Shawn: "Chill out, guys."
Me: "Sorry if this offends, but I don't see how anyone can be so utterly in love [to give their partner ORAL INTERCOURSE] and when they break up, hate them! LOVE NEVER FAILS."
Whitney: "Does too!" (widens eyes, looks dumb and possessed) "It happens to everyone all the time! You don't know because it just hasn't happened to you yet!"
Me: "That's not love, Whitney. That's imminent like."


:)

School Days, School Days...

So I'm at school right now.
In computer class.
AKA - the place where most of my school-time NaNo-ing will be done.
Oh, and where I'll be checking my NANOMAIL.
So if you're on NaNo, PM me... In late Ocotber/November.

:)

Lauren.

8.27.2007

Once Upon a Time...

Lauren never got irritated like this.

asjkdaslkjdhagkjfafdh.

Why, oh why, does this irritate me? Besides the fact that she says this every day?:

[17:08] LizAliz: you know.
[17:08] LizAliz: i'm reading a wiki article on Bell Swan
[17:08] LizAliz: Bella*
[17:08] LizAliz: and it's like.. me O:
[17:08] LizAliz: minus the pale part
[17:09] LizAliz: I actually do have brown hair with auburn tips at the end o_O
[17:09] LizAliz: and i'm actually that short
[17:09] LizAliz: and my nails aren't that long because I bite them..
[17:09] LizAliz: maybe there's an edward for me somewhere


YOU AND NO ONE ARE LIKE BELLA SWAN.
PLUS, YOU ARE AN ASIAN WHO ISN'T ALL THAT SLENDER AND DEFINETELY NOT PALE.

AND NO, EDWARDS DO NOT EXIST, AND IT'S NOT OKAY TO PRETEND THEY DO. PRINCE CHARMING DOESN'T EITHER. GET OVER IT.
kthxbye.

----

Ugh. I don't know why that hacked me off. Probably just because Chantelle's driving me UP A WALL with her smartassiness. *Hah, sorry*.

Like, okay, look at this: You have two points, ci? (0,-2) and (0,4). Here's the equation to plug them in:

(huge square root sign over everything, btw)
(x2 - x1)squared + (y2 - y1)squared
which, filled in except for the last felhipping part is:
(0 - 0) squared + (4 - y1)

...CHANTELLE. TWO MINUSES DO NOT MAKE A MINUS LIKE THIS: (4 - 2)
YOU RETARD.
She was literally YELLING AT ME because I was trying to explain that a negative 2, next to a minus, made the equation filled in with (4 - (-2) equalling (4 + 2) FOR TWENTY MINUTES.

I don't care if you need me to help you.
But the yelling, AFTER you've been a turdface to everyone who's "not cool" in your book?
NO WAY, HOSEA.

8.26.2007

Oh, oh...

Sugar ain't as sweet as you,
Oh, Oh,
Monkey see as Monkey do,
and I could get addicted,
Sure as every movie ends,
Oh, Oh... Yeahhhh...

That almost makes grammar look like brain science. Hahahaha.

I'm bored.

8.25.2007

This Little Flaw of Mine...

Wow.

So the concert was amazing and I now own a pair of light-up antennae on a headband and a Relient K shirt (YES!).

But Morgan wasn't THERE.

It kind of threw me, and I was disturbed for a while since he said that he was going to actually possibly be there. He could've been teasing, but mannnn...

So I called him. While Bowling for Soup was playing.
He had to WORK. :O

But his dad and two cousins were there, he said, and that it totally sucked that he couldn't go. D:

NO KIDDING.
I WAS GOING TO TELL HIM YES, DANG IT ALL.

But anywho.
The concert didn't even get close to rivaling the BSBs live and fifth row, dead center. I LOVE THEMMMM.

8.22.2007

AHAHKSJDHKASJDHFKDAHF

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! YESSSSSSSS!

I'm doing this in points (a, b, c, ect.) because I'm so flipping tired and OH SO EXCITED:


a) We threw the BEST surprise party EVER for Amanda, and I was the genius that distracted her. SHE LOVED IT. I LOVED IT.
b) Ky, Amanda, and I are engaged to eachother. In the "hahaha" friend way. Not the literal one. Haha.
c) I'M ALLOWED TO GO TO THE CONCERT, even though her parents won't be there and we're staying until MIDNIGHT. YESSSS.
d) Morgan's going to -maybe- be at Frontier City at the same time I am. AHH.
e) I found out, after a long and awkward talk with my mother *shudder*, that I'm allowed to date. Which leads us to...

f) I could possibly be more-than-friends with a boy named Morgan very soon. VERY soon.

g) My parents like Morgan. Morgan is good. AMAZING, even. (Mom thinks he's sweet and looks nice. Ha, ha, Mom.)


Today's been one of those days were I want to IMPLODE with happiness. :D

8.21.2007

I AM NOT FIVE.

I really and truly don't understand why I can't go to Frontier City with Kyleigh, Amanda, and Amanda's boyfriend, ALL OF WHOM ARE CHURCH FRIENDS, without parental supervision.

THIS IS NOT HORMONES TALKING, EITHER.

Dad's all like "Well, even if it's completely free, you're not going without Carrie or Andy being there." Which, um, it's Amanda's sixteenth birthday. I SWEAR, if I can't go, I'm going to cry. School's too much non-fun to miss out on this.

alkjdlskjdasd. I WANT YOU, RELIENT K. MAKE MY DADDY LET ME GO.

I am not five, as I pointed out. I'm FIFTEEN.

8.20.2007

Love Bites.

[16:45] morgan: so
[16:45] morgan: i think im in love
[16:45] elderberryness: orly?
[16:45] morgan: madly in love
[16:45] elderberryness: oooOoh.
[16:45] morgan: yes i know
[16:45] morgan: its crazy
[16:46] elderberryness: pssh. of course, you're crazy, so no difference there.
[16:46] elderberryness: hahajk. :)
[16:46] morgan: lol
[16:46] morgan: but dont you know who im madly and insanely in love with?
[16:46] elderberryness: okay - who?
[16:47] morgan: YOU!
[16:47] elderberryness: ahaha!
[16:47] morgan: :-D
[16:47] elderberryness: ;P
[16:47] elderberryness: you ARE crazy!
[16:47] morgan: haha
[16:47] morgan: i know
[16:48] elderberryness: ergh. i miss youuuu.
[16:48] morgan: aw
[16:48] morgan: really?
[16:48] elderberryness: YES.
[16:48] morgan: dang
[16:48] morgan: so then you do like me
[16:48] elderberryness: who said I didn't ever like you?
[16:49] morgan: =-O
[16:49] elderberryness: hahaha.
[16:49] morgan: well
[16:49] morgan: one time i asked you out and you said no
[16:49] elderberryness: yeaaah.
[16:50] morgan: so then you dont like me?
[16:50] morgan: lol
[16:50] morgan: jk
[16:50] elderberryness: lol.
[16:50] elderberryness: i DO like you.
[16:50] elderberryness: but.
[16:50] morgan: ?
[16:51] elderberryness: i'm not going out with anyone. yet. at all.
[16:51] morgan: why not?
[16:51] elderberryness: parents.
[16:51] elderberryness: or so they've "suggested."
[16:52] morgan: suggested you get a bf?
[16:52] elderberryness: no.
[16:52] elderberryness: against it.
[16:52] morgan: what do you mean?
[16:52] elderberryness: they would "prefer" if I didn't date for, like, another year.
[16:53] elderberryness: (except my mom, who thinks I'm always sating someone secretly on the side.)
[16:53] morgan: how gay
[16:53] elderberryness: yeeaah.
[16:54] elderberryness: :/
[16:54] morgan: "/
[16:56] morgan: yeah
[16:56] morgan: i miss you too


"Yeah. I miss you too. Doesn't change a thing - Sorry."

8.18.2007

BATMAN!

nanananananananananana....

:D

Random love, mah baybayz.

8.16.2007

Royally SICK.

I don't feel good at all.
Like, I've been asleep since nine, and I wake up at eleven, and am sitting here writing this because YESTERDAY, I went to sleep at SEVEN, woke up at TEN, and then proceeded to sleep more.
I have a four-day stomach ache that I think one of my friends gave me. IT'S THE THIRD DAY OF SCHOOL.

Anyways.
I missed you guys, so I'm way sorry that IM, at least in the mornings, is totally and completely out of the question on school days, but of course, if I'm still sick like this in a few days, I may be staying home.
In that case, talk to me. Please. Ha.

CLASS SUMMARY, for anyone who likes to read what I write when I'm so dead bored like this:

FIRST HOUR - CHEMISTRY - Mrs. Ferguson's okay, I guess, but she's monotone, and since we're already taking notes, I'd like to be able to fall asleep. She gets absolutely no points for making us convert fifty L/g/m problems on the third day, and it really doesn't help that this is in the MORNING, after I've woken up at six to catch the bus which, mind you, is actually really cool because I know most of the people who ride it. Mostly.

SECOND HOUR - SOFTWARE APPS. - Actually, they should call this class 'Typing That Fools Anyone Who Thinks That Software is Even Involved in This Class', but it's all good. The teacher is my former HWJH assistant principal's (who liked me, thank goodness) wife, Mrs. Lewis, and she's pretty monotone too. Oh, and she expects us to type perfectly without opening our eyes. Ha, ha, ha.

THIRD HOUR - GEOMETRY - We have a younger teacher in this one named Ms. Smith (who is also the cheer coreographer, no kidding) who's really cool. She's down-to-Earth and actually has an idea of what she's doing in the class. Points for outright telling us that she's only looking at our papers at a glance - if most of them are right, and you've put effort into it, you make a 100.

FOURTH HOUR - SCIENCE SEMINAR - VERY COOL CLASS, but I have no friends in there. Like, I have the entire back row to myself every day, and no one wants to talk to the ONLY SOPHOMORE in the class. Crazy, huh? Anywho, you make a Science Fair project, and your ultimate goal is to go to Internationals. We work with OU, and tons of mentors, but we get to pick what we study and go wild, which as much as it scares the eternal crap out of me, I love.

Lunch. Woo. No better than last year. Probably worse. Blah. Three weeks until I can leave campus, or so Dad says.

FIFTH HOUR - DRAMA II - AHHH! I love Mrs. Baugus with all of my teacher-loving heart! She sold me a freakin' sweet hoodie from last year for five bucks, and since our class is only made up of 15 or 16 people, I know close to everyone. Drama kids are amazingly nice. We're doing skits at the moment, but are going to be working on The Pajama Game, which is WAY cute, for this fall. I'll be happy just to dance in it. :D

SIXTH HOUR - ENGLISH II - Mrs. Bronson is so sweet. She's taught for, like, ever, and I don't know how she can still be nice to kids. There's only fifteen in our class, but all of us are cool and like to have fun, which, uh, is GOOD. I don't know how SHE could be the one that assigned us that stupid, idiotic Summer reading. I refuse to believe it.


LOVE YOU GUYS! Hope I'm up and running soon, just so I can talk to you!

8.14.2007

HIGH SCHOOL NEVER ENDSSS.

WOW. I LOVE IT.
It's so amazing.
That's all I'm going to say.
I'm burning up and dead tired.

:D

8.13.2007

HYPERVENTILATION.

I don't know if I spelled that right, but HOLY CRAP.
SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW.
SUMMER IS OVER.
I HAVE TO GO BE A NEW KID.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

8.12.2007

Music andddd...

LYRICS! A POST ABOUT LYRICS!
Actually, just a post of lyrics. I'm not creatively inclined to write today. :)


Inconsolable
BSB

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor
When I let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I'd tell you this

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call?
Maybe 'cause I know you'll always be with me
In the possibility


CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I don't want to be like this,
I just want to let you know,
Everything that I'm holding,
Is everything I can't let go, can't let go.

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Don't you know it baby
I don't want to waste another day

I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable




“Putting words down is where the magic is.”
-Stephenie Meyer.

AHHHH.

Dearest Stephenie,

PLEASE KEEP MAKING ME HAVE THESE AMAZING HEART ATTACKS.

Love,
Lauren.



Via Amazing... I mean, Amazon.

8.11.2007

It's the Last Weekend...

...before school. Ugh.

I don't WANT to go to school. I'm not looking forward to a year of Kaydee Shaw, being a sophomore, and superbad homework.

Speaking of Superbad, that looks awesome. *want to see*

Anywho, I'm deadbeat bored. Ugggh.

Ttyl. :)

8.08.2007

High School Never Ends.

It's kind of strange without those quotes. Scary, almost.

So, I got my schedule today, for MHS. Ugh. Almost none of my friends (except that took drama with me both this and last year) are in the same classes as me!

1st Hour: Pre-AP Chem 1 - Valerie Ferguson
2nd Hour: Software App. 1 - Gina Lewis
3rd Hour: Geometry - Ashley Smith
4th Hour: Sci Seminar Honors - Macie Viets
5th Hour: Play Production - Karlynn Evans-Baugus
6th Hour: Pre-AP English 2 - Donna Bronson


I DIDN'T APPLY TO TAKE SOFTWARE APPLICATIONS. I KNOW THAT ALREADY.
Argh. Whatever. It's only for a semester, and then I have to take Oklahoma History (like we'd actually have some that's interesting and doesn't invovle cowboys, Indians, and the fight for land).

Anywho, I'm still on an Eclipse high. (*I love you, Edward Masen Cullen!!! You're amazing!*) Stephenie's flaunting her stuff and seeing as how she caused more than ten Oklahomans to show up at a Wal*Mart at midnight, she has every right in the world to.

I'd like to bite off Audrey's head. She ignored me at the meeting thing-y.

8.07.2007

HAPPY ECLIPSE DAY!

I LOVE YOU, STEPHENIE. YOUR BOOK IS WONDERFUL.

Sigh. Okay.
We ended up getting it at ten this morning. No one at Walmart last night would help us, and when we finally did get help, the lady said "only the book people could put out the books, and shipments came in at midnight". Meaning that it was BACK there, and yet no one would open a box. She was also talking about how many people, in MOORE ALONE, had come in at midnight and asked for that specific book, because she was stunned at the publicity. I felt like a dork, all dressed up and without a book. Idiots.
Turns out they only ordered four copies too. How DUMB.
But we got it. I read it. It's fantastico.
Oh, and we went to Ihop at one in the morning. Way fun. :)

Pictures later!! :D

8.06.2007

It's the End of the World.

Ha, ha. Just kidding.
Actually, that was the topic Kyleigh and I picked to do some writing about, and we're trying to pull a StephMey and write our favorite, most vivid scenes first. :)

Here 'yar.

The palm tree beside us burst into flames.
I stared at it for a minute, and then turned back to him. “Nice one, oh ye of large fury.”
“Yeah, thanks.” He responded sarcastically. “Now that I know you truly fear me beyond all rightful reason, we can get on with things.” He rolled his eyes. “You fickle humans don’t know when and what to fear.”
“Oh, and like you’re not human,” I retorted, irritated. He was treating me like I was something fragile and stupid; something to be kept in a zoo.
He looked over at me for a second, his bright green eyes almost curious, then turned away, chuckling.
“What?” I asked, fuming. “What’s so funny about that? I don’t see why…”
“I’m only half-human, Delilah.” He said in an every-day tone, not bothering to break his stride as I tried to follow him.
“You’re what?” I squeaked. “But… No. I mean, you’ve got the cool little powers and everything, but so do a lot of other people right now. So what; the whole city is wack! That doesn’t make you not completely human, and plus, I don’t exactly see scales or wings or…”
Zach spun around to face me, his emerald eyes glittering dangerously. “They save the wings for the nephilim.”
I gaped at him. “Are you… Angels…?”
“They’re angel mixed with human. Obviously, I’m not any part angel, or I’d be over there fighting in this stupid…” He drifted off, making exasperated hand motions. “This… whatever it is.”
I pulled myself back together enough to form complete sentences, and spoke slowly enough to make sure I was saying what I meant, and not what was rushing though my mind. “You’re saying that everything is happening because there’s some kind of war between half-angels and…?” I didn’t know what to say. ‘Hellions’ didn’t quote cut the mustard, and the way he was looking at me, cool and distant, made me think that if I’d said it, he would’ve most likely fried me.
He sighed, and dully quoted Isaac Newton. “‘With every force, there is an equal and opposite force.’ I think you have an idea what this force is, though I really doubt you have the slightest clue of how that force works, and I’ll leave it at that. Plus, you’re a good girl. You don’t need nightmares like this just yet.” He smiled sweetly, ruffled my hair playfully, and started walking again. All the sudden, I didn’t care if he fried me. I was so angry that he wasn’t telling me anything. “You’re a demon, then? Some spawn of Satan?” I blurted.
He laughed loudly, but didn’t bother answering me.
“Zach!” I yelled, as he started getting ahead of me. “Seriously! What if I can figure out why this is happening?”
He stopped walking and turned around, still smiling a little. “Then you’re as good as gold, love.” He shrugged, laughing lightly, and went back to walking. “It won’t save you. I know the reason for this chaos, and it won’t save me, either. But hey, nice try, you know.”
I groaned in frustration. He wasn’t making this easy, fun, or even simple.
“I’m fighting then!” I yelled at him.
He threw his hands up. “I don’t care, Delilah. Do whatever you want.”
“Well, good. I’m siding with the angel-people.”
It worked. He froze. Except I really didn’t expect him to do what he did.
His eyes narrowed, and he walked up, faster than anyone I’d ever met, until we were face to face. It reminded me of those movies, where the character thinks that they’re going to be dead; my heart started racing, and I caught myself holding my breath, like that would set him off.
“You don’t understand the concept of war. You don’t know what sacrifice is, and you sure as anything don’t know what the nephilim are and what they stand for.” His voice was deadly and smooth, his breath very nearly cold as it hit my face from above his staggered height. “You’re human. Any superior being would have the right mind to blow you away and leave you for dead in a time like this. You are nothing, and they are immortal. All humans ever do is get in the way.”
“So why don’t you kill me then, Zach.” I spat with force. “Get it over with.” I was shocked that I even had the guts to retaliate like that, and even more shocked that I was staring him in the eye with a brazen ability that I never knew I had. It apparently was new to him, too, and he seemed speechless for a moment.
“You want me to kill you?”
“It’s going to happen anyway, isn’t it? At least your freaky power is quick and easy to do it with, so I won’t suffer much.”
He moaned. “It’s not a freaky power. Stop calling it that.”