You Know What's Weird?

I'm nervous about tomorrow.

Probably because of the party, but I mean really, is that a big deal?

My brain happens to be screaming 'YES. YES, IT IS.'

I don't know. It probably has something to do with the fact that all of my guests, save one, are males I've known since Jr. High.

Daniel and Andrew are for sure coming to play assorted crap at my house, Kyleigh's going to be very late, and...

Well, fine. I haven't called Morgan yet. But he's invited.

Which may be why I'm nervous.

So I was kind of sitting here, thinking about how everyone listed above, except MORGAN, has been inside of my house at one point - whether it was before or after the fire. And then, being lost in my own thoughts, I remembered why, and one of my stupider moments:

I hated Morgan. Plain and simple. And until a minute ago, going through my old Xanga (beware.), I found out.

And it made me laugh.

"Morgan... (The rest of you don't have to read this.) I don't get it. What in the freaking -another place other than heaven- are you trying to do?! Tell me what's going on, in writing, email it to me, and then we can talk. I don't want to jump in here with you saying... crap... like 'i didnt say what you said i said you want me to go to hell'. Oh. My. GOSH. First of all, quit putting wirds in my mouth, even if they belong there, and if you have that big of a problem, put your head between your legs and kiss it. I don't need this. I tried avoiding you, but then you use me as a game and are always trying to talk to me. You say you didn't use me? You knew me for TWO WEEKS beofre you asked me out. Here's the deal: I was letting you down easy, buddy. I absolutley did not want to go out with you. So, tell you what? Tell me what you want me to do. I'm past listening though. Been there, done that, failed. And, oh, by the way, learn to spell and punctuate."

Ohyyeaaaah. I was an idiot.
But you know, neither one of us could actually remember why, a year later, we were fighting.

...Which might be good. I was a little bit of a pain.

Anywho. I remember once, he came to the rental house after the fire and after that comment to be friends. I hated him enough to where I tried to avoid going outside to see him.

But I think when I finally did, it blew over. :)

WOW, things have changed.