♥...? I Didn't Think So.

So, I was going to do a whole post on the amazingness of the zoo, but I just started thinking about a conversation that a couple of friends and I have had, and it's really bugging me. Bear with me, I'm ranting.
Daniel, a friend I've known since fourth grade, has asked me out at least four times. I told him no. The reasons were fairly simple, and I'm still not having any regrets, but they concerned that he constantly had to have a girlfriend, no matter who it was [he's dated a streetwalkerish girl before for a day, so I know what I'm saying here], and he's dated one of my -usedtobe- best friends in the world, Kim. She was his first girlfriend, and I know he's sweet and all, but it's like I was second-ranked. Even if he was the first guy to ever tell me I was beautiful [in those exact words, after a pool party at Kim's house before they started going out], he quit trying to love me because I was scared [I did have a crush on him at the time], and moved on to her.
Charles, on the other hadn, I can summarize in about two words: too perverted. He dated Kim, too [in fact, that's why she broke up with Daniel - to go out with him], and ASKED her to go makeout with him at his parents house. Again, I had a crush on him and fell into second place. Even if he hadn't done the pervert stuff, I doubt I would've thought twice about saying no.
Both of those guys were my friends for a verrryyy long time. Still are, in fact, even though Charles moved to North Carolina and is supposedly on drugs and dating a seventeen-year-old.
And then, bam, wham, Morgan comes along. I met him last year, where we instantly started to hate eachother and fight over the internet, but didn't come to really know any of him until this year. He asked me out over the summer, through IM, and I'm a very sappy freak who believes in "ask it to my face", and I didn't know him anyways, so I laughed it off. No big. This year, he became one of my best friends of all time, but started asking me out again. I turned him down again and again, convinced that he was just another best friend who wanted me to be his second choice [he had a MAJOR crush on Kim over the Summer, which kind of didn't help the deep depression that I was working on]. I joked about it with Casey, and we blew it off easily every time.
Then, Morgan met Crystal.
[I used to like Crystal. I thought we were friends. Then along came Jr. High. That has absolutely nothing to do with this, though.]
Crystal threw Morgan for a loop: She WANTED to go out with him. After at least a year and a half of chasing Kim without avail, and another half year spent convincing me that we could be more than best friends, he decided that Crystal, in all of her emolicious-glory and bad-attitude rebelliousness, was the one for him. They're still dating.
I don't know what happened, but it's like he's not even there anymore. We don't talk much, don't give eachother a passing glance, or even smile. He hangs out with them, I hang out with the people that I went to elementary school with [half of them are mysteriously non-friendly around me anymore]. Whenever we try to talk in Math, the only class we have together, I can't look at him and he kind of beats around a subject. I didn't know he'd even started dating Crystal until a week after, when I was raging to Chasity about how he wasn't on speaking terms with me and she explained.
You know it's gotten bad when you're jealous and hurt because the perfect girl for him took the guy you won't date, though you know you love him.
Which almost makes no sense, but stands true anyways.
I sound like a bad romance novel. Sorry. I really am happy and smiley and all, but I was just thinking about that and had to type it all out to get it out of my system.
The Zoo was AMAZING. Bats are incredible. :D

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